Dear all,

We would like to thank you for your months of support and prayers for Barnabas. Without your faithful support, we really do not know how we could handle all these walks. Thank you for always being there for us and assuring us that there is really a place we can fall back to.

Though we saddened by his departure but we know that there is an divine appointment with him when we are in heaven.

As we looked back this journey, we only can thank and praise God as the bible says: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who ahve been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28. We don't question God as why had He taken Barnabas back to him BUT we choice to believe and know that what God had done is good and beneficial to him and us (as his parents) because we love God.

I thank God for making to pass what I had pray for earlier on "Hi all, prayer for my son. Hi Barnabas, daddy’s prayer for you is that you will continue to be strong. Mummy and Daddy will be with you and will walk alongside with you. God will be the source of our strength and all the aunties and uncles want to see you as an overcomer cos they all love you too. So you get well soon cos we want to show you our home." - Taken from Barnabas' web-site. We are thankful that we are able to bring him home with us for almost 1 month (8/7/04-6/08/04). We thank God that we were even able to walk with him and alongside him during the cortege. We were thankful that all uncles and aunties had saw him as an overcomer in life.

Barnabas had really stretched us, conditioned us, trained us as his parents, we never know that we can be that stretcheable. And there are some valueable truths to draw out from these months of his campiagn.

#1 We learnt that as much as we had love, lavished everything that we had on him, be with him thus we pay the PRICE. God also loves each of us (including you) dearly to him. He loves us, He lavished His best gift to us - His Son, Jesus.- His price

#2 We've learnt how to give PRAISE and thanks to God during our toughest moments in our lives. It is much more easy to curse and swear, much much more easy to complain at the "reception's table" BUT we CHOOSE to give God our sacrifice of praise. It is not easy but we choose it. It is not easy but we PURPOSEFULLY want to do it. We know that when we choose to do the right thing, it will really pleases God.

#3 We've learnt to PERSEVERE. Barnabas taught us to perserver. This child fought each downturn with zeal, passion and courage. He turn Docs' doubts to hope, he change our routine prayers to relational prayers. Barnabas turn each hopeless ends to endless hope thru' your prayers.

If we could feel what Barnabas wants to say to you, we believe it will be:
Dear Uncles and Aunties, thank you for showing me what God's love is although I do not know you. But I can feel it and experienced it. Though you only know me thru' daddy's emails but I know that each one of you do really loves me as your very own because Jesus is in each of you. Your love and support for mummy and daddy had already make me feel so love! Till then, I will have a divine appointment with you, in heaven.

Uncle Gordon, you look really cute with your hairstyle. You look like a warm friendly bear to me. Thank you for loving mummy and daddy. Thanks for praying for me.

Uncle Benny, you really look like daddy, but daddy looks handsomer than you. Thank you for imparting so much to mum and dad. Thanks for praying for me too.

Uncle Willie , I finally get to see daddy lookalike but a older version. Daddy told me that you are a very handy and a resourceful man. Yes indeed! You are!

Aunty Cindy, you are so passionate and positive. You kept telling mummy and daddy to look above the physical realm and look to God, I hear it loud and clear when sleeping in the cot...Just pretending to be sleeping only....

Uncle William n Aunty Sharon, thanks for always being there for daddy and mummy. Thanks for investing your life in my dad and protecting him.

Aunty Gerry, thanks for helping me to raise fund for my medical fee. I knew mum and dad had said lots of thank yous to you but when you cuddle me in your arms that sunday, you cried... I can really feel your love for me and remember I frowned at you? Yes, I was telling you don't worry. I thank you for the song you had written for me, I've heard it on Sunday when you sung to mum and dad. It's so nice and
catchy and Barn likes it! I pray that God will bless your womb with abundance.

Till then, we will definitely meet again!
Barnabas Tan Yong En


Jesus Loves Us – You And Me
2 August 2004 – Jesus Loves BarnabasWritten By: Aunty Geraldine)

When it’s time to sleep:
Close your big eyes and count to three (one, two, three)
Jesus loves us – you and me
Don’t open your eyes and you’ll still see
Jesus’ love for you and me
‘Cos Jesus is our Saviour
The most beautiful Lord of all
His love is like the sunshine
Strong and yellow and bright
Close your eyes and count to three (one, two, three)
Feel His love, so deep within (Mm, mm, mm)
Don’t open your eyes, don’t peep at me
Rest your eyes and go to sleep
Lay with Jesus, at His feet
Go on now and dream sweet dreams
He loves you and He loves me.


To our beloved son:
Hi Barn,
Your stay in KK had taught daddy what life is all about. Your zeal to live. Your passion to survive. Your courage to fight. What a champion! Till then, we do have a divine appointment.... in heaven.
"Let the peace of God come reign in my heart, Let the peace of God come reign in my heart, I will not fret nor will I be anxious. Let the peace of God come reign in my heart"
Loving you since day one,
Ni Lau Pay (Your father) 6/8/04

My Ever Dearest Son,
Well, tho' we did not say goodbye but I know that's becos it is not a goodbye yet, we'll definitely meet in heaven. By then, we will be in a place without tears and pain. Heaven is a place of rejoicing and you get to be there first. Just want to say, that the 3 weeks were great and I am privileged to be your mum.
See you,
Your bestest mummy 6/8/04



Thanks for Sharing our journey with us

We know that come what may... we will still run
TomSum



As I recall typing this mail 3 years back, I wept while typing out this mail. Was totally lost for a moment because Barn was the one who hold me or maybe our daily affair for that past months in the hospital and at home. Now everything comes to a standstill. Lostness was the word to use.... But then, never did we knew that God has instored great & big things for us...
Will blog again.